Metamorphosis is painful, my body is hurting and my emotions are spinning.
We met with the Doctor on Monday and after a thorough examination and using me as a human pin cushion she has a couple of probabilities; Lupus, Lyme Disease, or thyroid (which I am already being treated for.) I meet with her December 1st to see the results of the lab work. So now I wait.
My Virgo mind wants a label and a plan right now, medical stuff doesn't work that way, and if this Neptune transit goes as I expect- the results will be vague and/or bring more questions.
I am learning to feel helped instead of helpless as the tears threaten to flood my cheeks because this is a hard perspective to maintain.
I am learning to let go of control, because honestly, right now, I have no control. This is challenging, I am a do-er, I like to take care of everything and right now I can barely take care of me.
My mantra remains "on the promise of a butterfly" because it's what gets me through feeling like a squishy little thing in a cocoon.
On the promise of a butterfly🐛