It makes me angry that I am stuck with this for the rest of my life! Angry! Screaming mad. No one deserves this, no one should have to live like this!
But it isn't just sleep that makes me so mad, it is the constant pain, the never ending battle to pretend it does not hurt as bad as it does.
Even now, as I type this, I am having to consciously open my jaws enough so my teeth do not touch because the TMJ pain is just around the corner to a severe headache.
The loss of mobility and ability make me mad.
The loss of my social butterfly wings makes me mad.
The isolation and devastation.
The distance from friends because I am moody and no longer convenient.
The limitations.
The dreams on hold- haha- someday things will be different.
The anger itself makes me mad.
Sometimes I miss the me I used to be.
Sometimes I can just be angry about it all.
Just sometimes.
#chronicIllness #fibro
#fibromyalgia
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#adrenalinsufficiency
#secondaryaddisons